and this fucki'n pain will die.. jag vet inte vad ja ska säga, mitt liv? är som en jävla.. vet inte  bra ibland . ibland inte, så skönt typ av med alla gamla vänner, alla som är falska! jag gillar inte brudar, ja gillar väl ingen. jo min syster & mina nära, dom skulle jag kunna dö för. undrar vad dom tycker dom är för bra för mig. usch! känner att jag måste skriva av mig. för jag vet inget, ja vill vara glad! är ju det , men endå har ja ångest. fuck this dö eller leva helvete? kanske blir bättre om man inte finns mera. fuck fuck fuck fuck .. :(

i have speak to nathalie now, everything feels good for a minute you make me strong, can't belive that you are so fucking wonderful to me . . i think i have become a psycho ? i don't really know. but what i know is that i really need natta, rille  , mandy my brothers <3 i love you all' if i have you all, i can live! love love love to you <3 

i hate this live, i really do. whay can't i just die right now? i don't live for anything. I don't want the world to see me, 'Cause I dont think that they would understand..My baby sis, try to take here life in the holiday whay whay? can't you speak to me? i don't understand anything anymore. i hate this.

weill mandy 'n me are gonna party sooon :) i hope it will be nice, <3 

can't someone take away the pain? i hate this. everything. can't someone be honest? .. this is life, my fucking life but i don't feel like i have anylife. i don't wanna live like this i wanna die and forget everything as have with me to do.. fuck fuck fuck.. well i was with mandy yesterday i't was really nice actually we talk about everything, i miss u girl. i hope we can be as closes like we were before. be strong girl!something i really hate is that i don't know were i have my best friend ? well,  i can't explain the feeling when she take her boyfriend before our friendship.. sad so fucking sad!

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you

Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken

I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you

Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.

'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me

I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.

And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you